I know that blogs are usually people telling stories but in my attempt to share my heart with you guys I want to ask you for prayer for something that has impacted me a lot during this week. I think I am at the point where I am confident enough to share with you a struggle that I am helping someone get through. {for her sake, her name has been changed.}
Let me walk you through everyday life as Ruby. Everyday she walks to school because her family has one car. She walks when its boiling hot and she walks in the snow. She walks into the school with her head down, no one says hi. She's invisable. Ruby heads to class, she sits in the front of the room and absorbs everything the teacher says unaware of the people behind her laughing and making fun of her. She's a genius. Straight A's. Principals List. The day flys by until lunch. The time she hates the most. She buys her lunch and sits there and reads and eats. occasionally people will come up and sit with her to get their friends to laugh. She knows. She gets home after school and her dad is waiting with a warm smile. She smiles and walks to her room. Her mind goes crazy, "why am I here? what have I done with my life? would people miss me if I died?" She expresses her thoughts to facebook. 11 people comment telling her how great she is. It gets her through the next day but she has the rest of the year to survive.
I met Ruby my eighth grade year. I went to her birthday with 2 other girls, my sisters. We were the only ones there. After than I didn't see her or hear about her until just recently when the lady who drives me to school mentioned the status she posted. I decided that I wouldn't allow it. That monday I invited her to sit with me. {& this isn't tooting my own horn, I should have done this a long time ago!} she politely declined. A few days later I told her that she was "always welcome to join us!" She smiled and said "okay"
She has yet to come join us but I will keep pushing. The reason I tell this is not to get credit because it's all the Holy Spirit in me, I did nothing. But I bring this to your attention to 1. ask for prayer for her, her family, & me to be able to keep up with inviting her to sit with me and 2. to look for people in your school who are hurting and help them before it's too late.
xox,
kirsten
